|pissing off everyone
||[Feb. 27th, 2006|12:30 pm]
age -ver -req
|||||social distortion - reach for the sky||]|
i've been pretty down these last couple of days. it sucks having an anxiety disorder and being able to do nothing about it. my prescription gives me insomnia so i have to suffer the feeling of something being wrong all the time and it's my fault or no sleep. i work to much to give up sleep so look where that leaves me. i just feel like i've lost hope in myself. maybe that's good though. maybe i should put more hope in God than i do myself. Lord knows i am disappointing.
as for the taste of chaos. i don't even want to talk about it. thanks for making me feel like shit for doing the right thing. i'm an asshole both ways so it doesn't matter what i do.
i didn't do anything this weekend. sat in my sorrow, that's about it.
as for the rest of the week - i'm just going to try and work hard to pass the time and maybe this weekend i can find a solution to my problem, whatever it is.
your decisions are born in the dark
if it is right, why are you afraid
the world is all you have to give away